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I was reading through some of my old blogs and I realized a goal I had set for myself was to make the dean's list.

It feels so good when you reach your goals :]

"I feel ripped off by Disney movies. I grew up believing that my very own Prince Charming would find me, and it would be lovely, and I would be happy forever and there would never be a spider in the bath, or a blown light bulb when I’m home alone, or a rainy day when I missed the bus. My Prince Charming would never let me feel sad. I honestly believed that, because seeing is believing, and that was all I’d seen.

But I was little then, and now I am fourteen years old, and I wonder if Prince Charmings even exist. I know I’m too young to feel like this, but I’m glad of it. I’m glad I’ve realized now that even if I did find that perfect boy for me, sometimes spiders might still crawl up through the drain and I might only see them once I’d gotten all my bubble bath and candles ready. And I know that bus drivers are dickheads and won’t stop driving for someone who’s running to the stop, even if I do find the love of my life. I am glad that I know, now, that it’s okay if I never have a man like Prince Eric or Aladdin. Because Eric fucked a fish lady and Aladdin wears stupid pants anyway, and they couldn’t solve all my problems with a pretty song and dance.

So I feel ripped off by Disney movies, because they lied to me when I was just a gullible little kid, and made me wish I could go to a ball and find the love of my life. I feel ripped off, because they made me hope for something impossible. I feel ripped off, because what I’ve learned in my short life is not to believe what you see in movies. And now, if my very own Prince Charming came along, I wouldn’t even see him."



Quoted from Lilly @ www.leloveimages.blogspot.com

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."

Valentine's Day is the most pointless holiday next to Sweetest Day. I'm not bitter because I don't have a Valentine or a Sweetie; I just hate how it's corrupted the minds of everyone in the world. Guys rushing around at the last minute because they THINK they have to buy girls flowers and chocolates. Girls panicking because they don't want to do the same thing they did last time. It's so superficial to me. Why can't you just spend some quality time together. Why do you have to spend money on an expensive diamond necklace? Why do you have to buy a dozen roses just to win her admiration? Why do you feel the need to dress up to impress him if he's already yours? I don't get the point of the holiday. According to some, It's a time to let your partner know you love him or her...

If you're in a functioning relationship, shouldn't you already know this? Shouldn't you be telling each other at least once a day how much they mean to you or that you love them. Do you really need a holiday to tell someone you care about them? It grinds my gears that a guy or girl can celebrate one day of something that should be occurring daily if the relationship is functional.

If I had a valentine, I wouldn't want him to buy me fancy things. I would just want to spend the day playing music, playing video games, maybe walking around a museum or a park, ordering chinese and staying in to watch a movie. I don't need all the fancy corporate Hallmark cards...I'd much rather him tell me then a tangible card.

My valentine's day will be spent with the things I know will love me regardless of what day it is...I will spend my day with music, education, family and friends.

Happy belated thanksgiving everyone!
Happy Black Friday everyone!

My thanksgiving was great. My sister's best friend Theresa marched in the Macy's Day Parade. I spent my morning helping my parents cook and watching the parade, as I do every year. The house smelled amazing. There's something about the scent of a turkey cooking and pumpkin spice that calms me down and puts a smile on my face. If bath and body works could bottle those scents up and place them in a body spray, I would probably be a devout customer for life...not that I'm not already or anything ;]

So most of you know, after hearing about my mom's co-worker's mother-in-law passing away from swine flu, I got my vaccine. I'm talking about it with my family as we're setting the table (great topic right?) and then the next thing I know my grandparents give me and my sister these straws.



Back when we were little, we had got these and they stayed at my grandparent's house. Probably for good reason too. My sister and I, after making swine flu jokes and taking tons of pictures, decided to make pig noises by blowing air into our drinks through the straw. My dad got annoyed and threatened to turn us into bacon. This only made everyone at the table laugh harder. I love my family more than anything. We have a strong sense of humor..thank goodness haha.

Janet and I went over to my aunt's house last night to spend the night. We ended up staying up till midnight then waking back up at 3AM to be at Target by 4AM. With a quick stop at Sheetz for a pumpkin spice cappuccino, we were on our way.

Black Friday definitely brings out the crazy side of people. It was close to 4 when we got to target and the line was huge. Of course as if waiting in the cold wasn't bad enough, it had to start pouring down rain. The security was going around reminding people not to run and if you were caught running, you would be thrown out. I'm really glad that people have to be reminded of these rules. I have such hope for people. Once we got in, people started running. Black Friday must cause a short circuit in the memory department. Janet and I thought it would be hilarious if we just stood in the middle of the electronic isle and created chaos for people. Sure enough hilarity ensued and we had to go find somewhere else to stand because people watching was getting ridiculous.

Wal-mart was way too crowded..not even standing room.

Kohl's was decent. Didn't get anything from there though. There was a lady at the door and she was like "Are you going to use your Kohl's charge card?" I told her no and she's like "Well would you like to sign up..blah blah blah" I politely told her no thank you, thinking okay, she's probably had a rough morning..I'll be nice. So the lady continues to ask me. I've had enough and I turned around and I was like "um, i'm 16..." She quickly apologized and went on to asking the next customer.

I'd like to point out that I am 19 years old. I was wearing my BHS letterman and I ventured out without any make-up on so I got away with it...having a baby-face doesn't hurt either.

Last stop was Game Stop. While my aunt wandered around finding the video games for my cousin, Janet and I decided to play super mario on the wii. Then we moved on to playing "Up" on the PS3. Finally we moved ourselves over to playing the beatles rock band. We managed to spend an hour playing yellow submarine, here comes the sun and can't buy me love over and over and over again. While we were rocking out and getting our beatles on...this happened.




It is just snow Ohio...you deal with it from October to May. It's nothing different. It's not rocket science. LEARN TO DRIVE. YOU ARE NOT A SOUTHERN/WESTERN STATE. YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE TO DRIVE LIKE AN IDIOT. My public service announcement for the upcoming winter season.

peace.
-Ashley

P.S.

What are some of your favorite holiday songs? Lately I've been listening to baby it's cold outside and taylor swift's last christmas

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times. Once, you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe is perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as anything less than you deserve. And once, you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be. And when you’re through will all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that needed you the most. But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

I hate the girl that is so in love
I hate the girl that is so in love she blushes the minute he walks into the room
I hate the girl that is so in love she Can’t think of anything but him
I hate the girl that is so in love she becomes speechless
I hate the girl that is so in love that the only movie she can see is The Notebook
I hate the girl that is so in love she feels sick When he is not with her
I hate the girl that is so in love she imagines their entire future together
I hate the girl that is so in love she becomes naive
The reason I hate this girl is because she is me. You might be wondering what the reason for all the hate is. The reason is simple, the girl’s love, my love was and will never be answered