A friend in need is a friend indeed?
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I wasn't mad at first but now I am ticked. Its been building up for awhile and I have no where else to vent this all out. One angst ridden vent blog coming up.
I love you to death and you're one of my best friends but Heathus Christ, I don't know what has gotten into you lately. I haven't been able to get that conversation out of my head. I've done everything I can to get you help. I don't know what else to do. You pretty much admitted to me that you are still self-harming and for you to tell me that I need to stop treating you like you're going to go home and hang yourself? Well there's nothing like a big slap in the face. This is what I get for trying to be a friend and help you out. Self-harming often leads to suicides. I've had so many people close to me commit suicide in these past two years. Its not something I take very lightly. Excuse me for caring about my friends...excuse me for having a heart...
When you told me all that stuff, my heart broke. I got home and cried about it. I cried because I had to face the music and realize that nothing I say or do is going to get through to you. I can't always be the hero. I can't always fix everything.
If this all because of the fact you got dumped, coming from my perspective, it's a little bit on the obsessive side. Keeping track of the time, still moping about the fact and trying to constantly talk to him, it gets obsessive after awhile. Before you start with the "I got my heart ripped out" put yourself in someone else's shoes. I had my heart ripped to pieces...permanently and you don't see me still moping over it. Granted, I hear a song or see something and it takes me back, but everything happens for a reason. You have to move on and realize enough is enough...No one wants to feel stalked...
Now, I wasn't mad but I am now. What happened last Saturday was pretty much out of control. You know what i'm talking about and I can't really say anything more other than, You need to learn self control and learn when enough is enough. Oddly enough, that can be applied to the above paragraph. You need to get your priorities straight. Whats important to you?
End of story.
I'm not going to let people bring me down. I can't let that happen. I feel like every time I try to help someone out it always backfires...yet for some reason I always continue to help people. Sometimes I wish I were a real bitch...
I love you to death and you're one of my best friends but Heathus Christ, I don't know what has gotten into you lately. I haven't been able to get that conversation out of my head. I've done everything I can to get you help. I don't know what else to do. You pretty much admitted to me that you are still self-harming and for you to tell me that I need to stop treating you like you're going to go home and hang yourself? Well there's nothing like a big slap in the face. This is what I get for trying to be a friend and help you out. Self-harming often leads to suicides. I've had so many people close to me commit suicide in these past two years. Its not something I take very lightly. Excuse me for caring about my friends...excuse me for having a heart...
When you told me all that stuff, my heart broke. I got home and cried about it. I cried because I had to face the music and realize that nothing I say or do is going to get through to you. I can't always be the hero. I can't always fix everything.
If this all because of the fact you got dumped, coming from my perspective, it's a little bit on the obsessive side. Keeping track of the time, still moping about the fact and trying to constantly talk to him, it gets obsessive after awhile. Before you start with the "I got my heart ripped out" put yourself in someone else's shoes. I had my heart ripped to pieces...permanently and you don't see me still moping over it. Granted, I hear a song or see something and it takes me back, but everything happens for a reason. You have to move on and realize enough is enough...No one wants to feel stalked...
Now, I wasn't mad but I am now. What happened last Saturday was pretty much out of control. You know what i'm talking about and I can't really say anything more other than, You need to learn self control and learn when enough is enough. Oddly enough, that can be applied to the above paragraph. You need to get your priorities straight. Whats important to you?
End of story.
I'm not going to let people bring me down. I can't let that happen. I feel like every time I try to help someone out it always backfires...yet for some reason I always continue to help people. Sometimes I wish I were a real bitch...
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