Lost...
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I hate the feeling of knowing you're losing something you love. Let me tell you a story.
I remember way back in the day, I used to have this friend. I spent 4 years of my life being friends with her. We did everything together. I thought that best friends forever was meant to be taken seriously. Anyways, add in a stupid boy and a girl who I'd known my whole life and ta-da. Instant friendship ending recipe. She told me that she was only my friend because she felt sorry for me. The other girl was a better friend than I could ever be and oh yeah..not to talk to her ever again. I felt so empty after that night. I gave and gave and gave in that friendship and never got anything in return. I wasted four years of my life on someone who didn't give a hoot what happened to me in the end.
It would turn out that I would find someone who is a better friend than she ever was and I became a stronger person. Granted, I'm a little bit more cautious with who I let into my life now...but still. And to this day, I still hold her to what she said. I rarely talk to her and I guess everything worked out for the better...
Flash foward to today...
I've done everything I can for you. I've given and given and given and its never going to be enough. I'm not one for giving up but I can't keep going through the cycles. My weakness is that I care too much...maybe you are the one who's right. Maybe I do need to "quit treating you like you're going to hang yourself" Maybe I need to let you figure out what to do on your own. Maybe I just need to let go because holding onto something that doesn't want you there. There's only so much you can do in a situation and I think I've done everything I can. I still am going to be there for you. You come to me when you need me.
I remember way back in the day, I used to have this friend. I spent 4 years of my life being friends with her. We did everything together. I thought that best friends forever was meant to be taken seriously. Anyways, add in a stupid boy and a girl who I'd known my whole life and ta-da. Instant friendship ending recipe. She told me that she was only my friend because she felt sorry for me. The other girl was a better friend than I could ever be and oh yeah..not to talk to her ever again. I felt so empty after that night. I gave and gave and gave in that friendship and never got anything in return. I wasted four years of my life on someone who didn't give a hoot what happened to me in the end.
It would turn out that I would find someone who is a better friend than she ever was and I became a stronger person. Granted, I'm a little bit more cautious with who I let into my life now...but still. And to this day, I still hold her to what she said. I rarely talk to her and I guess everything worked out for the better...
Flash foward to today...
I've done everything I can for you. I've given and given and given and its never going to be enough. I'm not one for giving up but I can't keep going through the cycles. My weakness is that I care too much...maybe you are the one who's right. Maybe I do need to "quit treating you like you're going to hang yourself" Maybe I need to let you figure out what to do on your own. Maybe I just need to let go because holding onto something that doesn't want you there. There's only so much you can do in a situation and I think I've done everything I can. I still am going to be there for you. You come to me when you need me.
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