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I'm sitting here at 10:30 in the morning downloading custom content for my sims 2. lol my life. I have nothing to do until Janet calls me and tells me she's done with practice. I guess we're going out for coffee and shopping. Just what I need to do with my life right now. I feel like I'm watching everything unravel before my eyes. I've never been so scared for my family right now. Each day we don't get a phone call, I thank God that he's keeping him alive. I'm scared that I'm never going to get to see my cousins again. Things are getting scarier and scarier with each day.

I know you won't read this but its okay. I won't lie. I am jealous of her. She has what I wanted. I've moved on and I don't have feelings for you like that anymore. Sometimes I wonder what if and sometimes I feel like it happened for a reason. She seems like a really sweet girl and I'm happy you found someone you are happy with. I just can't help but to think that could've been me or What does she have that I don't? I don't know and I probably won't ever understand. I'm just glad that I can call you my friend. I'd rather have you as a friend than not have you in my life at all.

On the subjects of relationships, Livejournal asked me: What quality do you think is most important in a significant other? And honestly, I never really thought about it. As I get older, I just want someone with a good heart and good personality and a love for music (of course I had to sneak that one in there ahaha) I just want to be able to have someone to love me for who I am. I hate the spring time because thats when couples start to come out from their nests and you see them everywhere in public and I am constantly reminded "Oh hay ashley you're alone, sucks to be you." I know I should just be patient and a guy will come along eventually, but you can't help but wonder sometimes.

My sims stuff is done downloading. I will put some up pictures later.