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Back in 2004, I had this really strange dream. It had felt so real. I was so disappointed when I woke up and realized that it was a dream. What was it you ask? Well let me start at the beginning...

I was hanging out at my old friend's house on her back porch. I was sitting next to this guy with this white blonde hair, big beautiful blue eyes and he was a few years older than me. He was a musician and he played guitar. No idea how I had met him but he was my dream boyfriend. (I know this sounds so lame but bear with me) So in my dream, we went on dates and lived a happily little life together. It was the best dream by far and I have never forgotten it. Its still fresh in my mind, five years later...

Anyways it came to me a couple of days ago when I was talking to Janet, I know who this guy is. I've met him only once. She says I'm just imagining it, but he fits the exact description to a T. Its sad though that he'll probably never even know I exist and if I ever got the chance to tell him, he'd probably laugh at me and call me crazy. Which, after reading this blog over again, it truly does sound crazy but I just have this feeling. I'm arguing with myself over it. Part of me knows he is the exact guy but this other part is like it was a dream, let it go.


Life would be easier if we didn't have dreams. I wouldn't be in this kind of predicament...


PS. the picture is the the picture I drew of him as soon as I woke up. The writing on it says white hair, blue eyes, musician and the date was 4-12-2004.