☮ & ♥

So much fun.

After a long day at school and an even longer afternoon, Janet and I finally had something to be excited for. Doors weren't supposed to open till Seven but they actually opened them at like 5 and there were easily about 75 people already crammed up in the front. Janet and I took a spot by the stage and complained about the ridiculously tall 15 year old in front of us. We could barely see but we ended up moving ourselves up closer.

Let me just tell you all I have a mad love now for Evan Taubenfeld. The boy is amazingly talented and he knows how to work a crowd. He's such a natural born performer and not to mention he's quite the looker haha :]

Empires..I never really listened to them before so I was kinda the lost duck there. They were pretty good. Sucks to be the dude with laryngitis. Get well soon and thanks for the handshake. I better not get sick now lol

The Academy Is...aka William and Sisky were pretty amazing. William got up on stage and did his thing. Sisky sat on a stool next to Janet and I the whole time except for like two songs because he was up on stage. He looked pissed about something so I didn't bother him. My pictures didn't turn out the greatest because of the people being rude and the giant pole in my face but I still have some really great shots

and for the record my feet are STILL killing me because I decided to wear flip flops and then proceed to stand in line for 45 minutes to meet the guys.

There's my quick little review. If you want to know more ask. I'm in a rush right now and I wanted to post a little something to show off my not so crappy pictures ahaha


edit: set list from what I remember...not in order mind you

about a girl
his girl friday
Seed... Read More
Automatic Eyes
Rumored Nights
The test
Attention
down and out
slow down
the phrase that pays
classifieds
pearl jam ( can't remember the song)
the shins (same)
alkaline Trio (same)
and a few more I can't remember either but it was a really good set

I want to jump headfirst into this picture. It's a bone chilling 8 degrees out right now. I don't mind winter that much but if its going to be this cold, at least snow. I spent most of the day with my mommy. I guess things are okay now. Moving out is still at the top of my list of things to do though.

You can't please everyone. No matter what you do, someone isn't going to like you. Thats just how life goes. You have to pick up your pride and move along. Why is that so hard to. I hate having to choose what will make someone happy. It's a lose-lose situation. I'll make heads of it somehow.

I need to get the girls together and get a night out. It's been too long.
Janet&Aleah&Me+Musica=long over due night out.

Now why can't it snow like this. All I ask is for a big snow fall which leads to snow days. I'm getting so burnt out and it's only half way through the second quarter. This senior-itis is starting to get to me. I want out, even though I know come August I'm going to say I want to go back. It never fails. I can't ever be happy with where i'm at. I always want something better, but then i'm nostalgic about the past.

Today I got to meet Congresswoman Betty Sutton. It was pretty cool. She really motivated me even more to get out there and work for my dreams. As soon as May 30th hits I am gone. I'm going to make a name for myself in the music industry. I'm going to show society that a small town girl next door can be a leader in the hardest industry for a girl to work in. I'm going to prove everyone who told me no wrong. You just wait and see.

I'm getting close on my second writing competion deadline. December 12th is the final for the Wayne College Student Writing Contest. I entered last year and got an honorable mention. Maybe this will be my year. I really hope so. I've written a personal essay, which you have seen below (happy 18th birthday, if you were here) and a couple of poems I might get around to posting.

Along with my write as I please creativity, I'm writing an essay for Macbeth and pulling a cosmetology project together. I really need Christmas break so I can take time to get myself re-focused and ready to keep pushing myself.

My christmas list:

-a boy that will make me a girlfriend and not just the friend
-a vanity for all my make-up and hair stuff
-money / giftcards
-a car
-A FREAKING JOB
-time with my best friend
-clothesssssss
-Taylor Swift's CD "Fearless"
-Britney Spears Concert Tickets


not too much to ask for right?


"Winter wonderlands were made for romances"


ps.

this conversation was too gold not to post

STFUxImAshleyWay (11:02:41 PM): wanna see what happens when you lick a ginger?
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:14 PM): .....
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your tongue turns orange.
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:28 PM): XDD
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:46 PM): bammmmmmm i haz jokez
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:48 PM): well had you kept your tougne out of my firecrotch...
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:52 PM): LMFAO
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:55 PM): you wouldn't have an orange tougne
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:58 PM): jsyk

So I wrote this on May 20th and put it up on myspace but I decided to take it off and edit it because I've had more time to think about it. So here we go. I bolded the parts for the tl;dr crowd.

Today in my english class, one of the things that made my ears open as wide as they could was the fact that mainstream music was being dismissed as a bad thing. I'm going to use Panic at the Disco for my example. Panic at the Disco is mainstream and yes they do have a teen following that has sparked many different trends but at the end of they day, its music and there is someone out there who is hearing one of their songs for the first time ever. I'm not going to deny it. I love Panic at the Disco. I don't love them for some of the reasons that it seems a lot of people love them for. I love them for the lyrics. To me, thats what is the most important thing about the lyrics. Lyrics are poems. It doesn't matter if its rock, if its rap, or if its country. At some point those lyrics were just words without a melody. I understand that people are frustrated with mainstream but honestly if you look at mainstream in a different perspective, its not bad. I listen to mainstream music but I also listen to independent music too. I love listening to artists who produce their own music and promote it themselves without the help of MTV but at the same time I'm not going to quit listening to the radio or watching Fuse just because "its mainstream".

Independent music is becomming mainstream. It's so trendy to hate mainstream right now. Everyone is suddenly turning to independent artists. So technically there really isn't an independent musid industry anymore is there.

I'm not going to lie to anyone. I listen to EVERY type of music out there from my sister's orchestra to the new panic at the disco cd to kanye west to rascall flatts. I really don't care what genre it is or what's currently popular. I listen to it because it inspires me. It gives me emotions. It makes me think about the lyrics and it makes me relate them to a time in my life. Music is more than just fancy beats or melodies played through good sound system. Music is lyrics. Music is emotions. Music is life.


Myspace.

These days it seems almost everyone has a myspace and it also seems that everyone has similar pictures. Even more, since the creation of myspace, there's this group of girls that look exactly alike. Everyone knows the "scene queens" and the wannabe "scene queens" They have the same hair, the same clothes, the same tattoos. They do all this stuff to get attention on myspace. They talk about how they know guys in bands and hang out with them all the time and they talk about how wild the parties they go to are. The talk about their "so called clothing line" and how they are models and even some of them go as far to call themselves artists and photographers.

I'm not going to lie. I have short layers in my hair that I tease up every day. I wear make-up because I like to. I take pictures because pictures help keep memories from fading away. I wear skinny jeans, flats and band tees not because " I think i'm sooooo unique" because i like my style. I'm not going to change because my style has become mainstream. I have a myspace obviously. I discovered myspace through a Good Charlotte messageboard back in the 6th grade. I've had once ever since. I really don't care what people think about it. Say what you want. Because of myspace I've heard some really amazing music and made some really amazing friendships. I don't use my myspace to go around announcing that I'm selling prints of myself to kids who worship me because I know how to use the contrast button on photoshop. Thats not art and its sad that girls on myspace are becomming famous for taking a photoshopped picture and selling to millions of people. There's no reason for that and honestly its quite creepy. But people are going to buy it because they are insecure with themselves and want to see what society is considering A) pretty and B) mainstream.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am not closed off to just one group of people. My friends are so varied you wouldn't even know how to begin to catagorize it. Take my best friend for example, She is someone you'd list the scholastic catagory. She's super intelligent and takes classes that challenge her knowledge. She doesn't dress to make herself fit in a "clique". When you see us together you see her and then you look at me and see my skinny jeans, flats, eyeliner, hair and then you go "Those two are best friends?" We may be completely opposite but inside we both think almost identically. I dress the way I do because I like it. I don't do it so I can get new friends on myspace. I don't dress the way I do to get friends. I don't do anything for other people. I do things for myself. I do things for me.