☮ & ♥

I want to jump headfirst into this picture. It's a bone chilling 8 degrees out right now. I don't mind winter that much but if its going to be this cold, at least snow. I spent most of the day with my mommy. I guess things are okay now. Moving out is still at the top of my list of things to do though.

You can't please everyone. No matter what you do, someone isn't going to like you. Thats just how life goes. You have to pick up your pride and move along. Why is that so hard to. I hate having to choose what will make someone happy. It's a lose-lose situation. I'll make heads of it somehow.

I need to get the girls together and get a night out. It's been too long.
Janet&Aleah&Me+Musica=long over due night out.

Now why can't it snow like this. All I ask is for a big snow fall which leads to snow days. I'm getting so burnt out and it's only half way through the second quarter. This senior-itis is starting to get to me. I want out, even though I know come August I'm going to say I want to go back. It never fails. I can't ever be happy with where i'm at. I always want something better, but then i'm nostalgic about the past.

Today I got to meet Congresswoman Betty Sutton. It was pretty cool. She really motivated me even more to get out there and work for my dreams. As soon as May 30th hits I am gone. I'm going to make a name for myself in the music industry. I'm going to show society that a small town girl next door can be a leader in the hardest industry for a girl to work in. I'm going to prove everyone who told me no wrong. You just wait and see.

I'm getting close on my second writing competion deadline. December 12th is the final for the Wayne College Student Writing Contest. I entered last year and got an honorable mention. Maybe this will be my year. I really hope so. I've written a personal essay, which you have seen below (happy 18th birthday, if you were here) and a couple of poems I might get around to posting.

Along with my write as I please creativity, I'm writing an essay for Macbeth and pulling a cosmetology project together. I really need Christmas break so I can take time to get myself re-focused and ready to keep pushing myself.

My christmas list:

-a boy that will make me a girlfriend and not just the friend
-a vanity for all my make-up and hair stuff
-money / giftcards
-a car
-A FREAKING JOB
-time with my best friend
-clothesssssss
-Taylor Swift's CD "Fearless"
-Britney Spears Concert Tickets


not too much to ask for right?


"Winter wonderlands were made for romances"


ps.

this conversation was too gold not to post

STFUxImAshleyWay (11:02:41 PM): wanna see what happens when you lick a ginger?
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:14 PM): .....
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:27 PM): http://i37.tinypic.com/xgint.jpg
your tongue turns orange.
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:28 PM): XDD
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:46 PM): bammmmmmm i haz jokez
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:48 PM): well had you kept your tougne out of my firecrotch...
STFUxImAshleyWay (11:03:52 PM): LMFAO
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:55 PM): you wouldn't have an orange tougne
xAshleyAutopsyx (11:03:58 PM): jsyk

src="http://i516.photobucket.com/albums/u330/Ashley_v2009/Summer%202008/DSCN1802.jpg" border="0" alt="" />








We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground


You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend


You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances and
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I found


A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again


True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the things you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in


A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
Don't need to pretend
ohh yeah
A true friend
You're here till the end(till the end)
(Your here till the end)
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

Happy Birthday bff<3 I know you don't want to celebrate it but I at least owe you a gift and a happy birthday.

Obviously firefox doesn't like blogspot too much. No worries though, I have returned to my faithful internet explorer.

Camping was even better than I expected. I missed my best friend so much when she was gone. We didn't go out to the campground Thursday like we planned. It was pouring down rain and we didn't want to put up our tent in the rain. Janet came over around 4 and be played in the rain. So I set the record straight being 17 actually means your 5. We got dried off and cleaned up and went to Bob Evans where Janet ate strawberries in front of me. That night we ended up writing some stuff that really brought out emotions in the both of us. It was good just to have that heart to heart.

Campground.
Our first campsite was under water literally. We ended up moving to a new site. The people across from us were peeping toms and peeping mary's. They acted like they had never seen two teenage girls put up a tent. Janet and I learned the exciting game of corn hole. Seriously that game is very amusing. The rest of the weekend involved playing pool, playing air hockey, swimming, ice cream, play ground and campfire games. JUAN!!!! It was so much fun. Best fourth of july in a while.

Some pictures from camping...



me with like zero make-up on trying to read Rant while Janet stuck her head in the picture.



campfire



harley davidson motorcycle game I was addicted to
holy batman dark hair

I took Tori to Cedar Point on the 14th. She had never been on a rollarcoaster in her life. It was sure an interesting trip. I screamed like a little sissy on the top thrill dragster. I waded in Lake Erie and played in the sand for a bit. Beth and I were on the magnum, she was sitting behind me and I was sitting in the car in front of her. We managed to hold hands throughout the whole ride. I thought for sure I was going to fall out on the one really tight turn. I'll let the pictures speak for themselves.

I'm back for good this time. This is my life and I won't let anyone try to make it otherwise. I'm reinventing myself to be a better person than I was before. I'm fixing my fixable flaws and learning to see the world in a different point of view. Wouldn't it be amazing if everyone saw beautiful things like this


I'm happy to report I'm slowly starting to trust people easier. I've been through broken promise after broken promise and after Brandon's death, I lost all faith in the human race. I'm learning to tear down the wall I'd built up in the past year. I want to be able to enjoy my senior without having to hold back because I'm too afraid to let people in. I'm ready to meet new people. I'm ready to say hello to the world I had turned my back on. I'm ready to live each day like it was my last. I'm ready to finally and truly be happy.

Speaking of Brandon, I've been emailing his mom a lot lately. Most of you know in the 3 years Brandon and I were together, I was super close to his family. After everything thats happened, I'm finally feeling like its okay for me to get involved with another guy. She told me to look at my relationship with Brandon as a teaching experience and she's right. Brandon taught me how to love unselfishly. He taught me what love feels like. I have to thank him for letting me experience those feelings. I am finally ready to go out and find this.



I'm leaving Thursday to go on a camping trip with my best friend. She just got back from her trip to the west coast and we've got a lot of catching up to do. I can not wait for a campfire and a good smore. In case you were wondering a perfect smore is a golden brown marshmallow with Hershey's chocolate. This is a picture from last year when I went camping.

You can tell I've obviously got some mad skills at mini golf.


Summer 2008. Please never end.
I don't want to be a senior yet.