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I have grown up.

I am at the point in my life where I need to make decisions for myself. I need to be able to do what I want with my life. I should be able to live for myself and no one else.

With that being said, I need to move out.
As soon as I get a job and save up some pay I am moving here
Rent is 600 a month
utilities are included
The apartments on second street
Cuyahoga Falls Ohio







SUMMER 2009 WHERE ARE YOU?????????

Ladies and Gentlemen.
This is why I love my life. People like this make me smile consistantly. Summer is almost over and Band started today. This is the first time I feel okay with band starting now. I finally saw Tubby for the first time in two months. I missed her. The girls and I saw Wall E and had some of the most amazing summer memories ever. I don't think i've laughed so hard. This is a sign of good things to come.

I love life<3

Obviously firefox doesn't like blogspot too much. No worries though, I have returned to my faithful internet explorer.

Camping was even better than I expected. I missed my best friend so much when she was gone. We didn't go out to the campground Thursday like we planned. It was pouring down rain and we didn't want to put up our tent in the rain. Janet came over around 4 and be played in the rain. So I set the record straight being 17 actually means your 5. We got dried off and cleaned up and went to Bob Evans where Janet ate strawberries in front of me. That night we ended up writing some stuff that really brought out emotions in the both of us. It was good just to have that heart to heart.

Campground.
Our first campsite was under water literally. We ended up moving to a new site. The people across from us were peeping toms and peeping mary's. They acted like they had never seen two teenage girls put up a tent. Janet and I learned the exciting game of corn hole. Seriously that game is very amusing. The rest of the weekend involved playing pool, playing air hockey, swimming, ice cream, play ground and campfire games. JUAN!!!! It was so much fun. Best fourth of july in a while.

Some pictures from camping...



me with like zero make-up on trying to read Rant while Janet stuck her head in the picture.



campfire



harley davidson motorcycle game I was addicted to
holy batman dark hair

I took Tori to Cedar Point on the 14th. She had never been on a rollarcoaster in her life. It was sure an interesting trip. I screamed like a little sissy on the top thrill dragster. I waded in Lake Erie and played in the sand for a bit. Beth and I were on the magnum, she was sitting behind me and I was sitting in the car in front of her. We managed to hold hands throughout the whole ride. I thought for sure I was going to fall out on the one really tight turn. I'll let the pictures speak for themselves.

I'm back for good this time. This is my life and I won't let anyone try to make it otherwise. I'm reinventing myself to be a better person than I was before. I'm fixing my fixable flaws and learning to see the world in a different point of view. Wouldn't it be amazing if everyone saw beautiful things like this


I'm happy to report I'm slowly starting to trust people easier. I've been through broken promise after broken promise and after Brandon's death, I lost all faith in the human race. I'm learning to tear down the wall I'd built up in the past year. I want to be able to enjoy my senior without having to hold back because I'm too afraid to let people in. I'm ready to meet new people. I'm ready to say hello to the world I had turned my back on. I'm ready to live each day like it was my last. I'm ready to finally and truly be happy.

Speaking of Brandon, I've been emailing his mom a lot lately. Most of you know in the 3 years Brandon and I were together, I was super close to his family. After everything thats happened, I'm finally feeling like its okay for me to get involved with another guy. She told me to look at my relationship with Brandon as a teaching experience and she's right. Brandon taught me how to love unselfishly. He taught me what love feels like. I have to thank him for letting me experience those feelings. I am finally ready to go out and find this.



I'm leaving Thursday to go on a camping trip with my best friend. She just got back from her trip to the west coast and we've got a lot of catching up to do. I can not wait for a campfire and a good smore. In case you were wondering a perfect smore is a golden brown marshmallow with Hershey's chocolate. This is a picture from last year when I went camping.

You can tell I've obviously got some mad skills at mini golf.


Summer 2008. Please never end.
I don't want to be a senior yet.